Believe

Down when I bow, down when I lower myself so much that my head touches the ground...from standing tall all the while to Down there for once...In the simplest of moments, I find... resolve...His patronage...
I find forever open arms...
to my surrender of humanly boisterousness...
to my stupidities and to my wrong doings...and to my sins.
I find these arms to be awaiting my apology, always there...
to give me another chance, another hope, and another..and another...to do something with myself that isn't fallible and weak, as it so easily is the case mostly with my race...so imperfect I am, I here myself whisper...
And how Divine you are to let me be...and not put an end to me in the blink of an eye...What is it that you see in me? You created me...and here I am...with all my weaknesses, ignorance and giddiness...as always...thinking of you in my sajda...Hm, atleast I have you...you dont judge me cuz I am a sinner...your doors never seem to close...so ethereal and yet always there for me and my words and pleas and wishes and what not...you're always there for me so...why Cant I?
Its cuz I believe in YOU... cuz you always believe in ME...
I come home to you, Please guide me, Please guide us All...
within this feeling of retreat to Him and His Forgiveness
I find peace, I find ease, I find backup...
I find simplicity.
Like a depository of faith that feels just right and appropriate...that does justice to this brand of humility...where God's own masterpiece in creations, humbly bows down to Him out of reverence and respect...it seems the only place that fits or, rather, is worthy of lowering oneself so much....what unlike all else, connects..
Takes you as close as you can hope to get...the one and only divine passport...
Prayers...

'It Fits!'

As it got closer and closer my heart started to really shift into high gear, I'd been there, holding the thing inside the curl of my fingers and the ambiance was sufficiently dark. The movie played on and as it got deeper into the story, I felt uneasy of the fact that I'd have to do it soon...and do it right! And then in an impulsive moment of confidence I took a deep breath, trying to conquer the impending nervousness that had kept building in me since I had pulled it out of my pocket and into my hand without you noticing, turned to face you...

Yes, you...I swear I can still see it, that look in your eyes, as you so innocently and so gorgeously looked on into the brightness, your eyes...they were like an abyss of beauty, I felt breathless in that vision, enchanted by those eyes that weren't even locked into mine at the moment...they shined and glistened in the dark, like little bright stars in the night sky, the fullness of your glowing visage, the shape of your eyes, the lining of your brows, the alluring kohl to top it off, the intermittently batting and mesmerizing eyelashes, that pretty face nestled in the black undulant hair...that splendor, that shine... :)

I can say that it was this heavenly sight that somehow gave me that last spark, as I went on.. to slowly and discreetly slide it up your finger...and smile triumphantly at what I saw <3
*the moment of truth*..."it fits!" ..I whispered, grinning.
Ecstasy took over me instantly...I had followed my observation to get the right size and was told that it would be seen if the instinctive guess I had made would turn out to be credible or not, making it all the more significant :p
Oh how long I had waited for this moment *sigh* :)
And I cant really say what you must have felt in that one electrifying moment, I saw a hottie, shocked and overjoyed at the same time, no words, just the way that face lit up and that jaw dropped...when you hadn't seen it coming and then suddenly... its on your finger, the stones glistening in the sight of your pretty-pretty fingers entwined with my dark ones...as you looked up at me and the act was sealed with the endearing and lovely exchange of those three lil words ;) from both Sam & Eden...
Priceless... :)
Uno cuatro tres <3

Idiocracy?

Why is it that we look but we donot see...?
If we watch a lil closely, its evident.
When you're in a forced male-female segregation, strictly administered everywhere, to preserve chastity and... help poeple "control" themsleves... and at the same time all your advertisements, tv commercials and cable networks need babes in 'provocative' clothes, big 'arousing' smiles and nice 'shapely' bodies to sell your fuckin products?? i mean what is that...?
Which way are we to turn...? which way is the simpleton guy with no education or money, to go? It's when humanly tendencies override...in other words, shit happens.
It might be possible to take the balanced route in the middle...ofcourse!
but an uneducated person who cannot think open-mindedly is prone to disaster in such an ordeal. Prolonged Segregation leads to other problems, every action has a reaction....why is it that a girl over there in a bikini can strut on a beach and sunbathe without having any fear of getting kidnapped by men, without insecurity? why is it that the same men over here might do just that if they saw a woman in a bikini? Dont they see her on the tv? late night movies? and on the internet and in cheap cinema halls? I mean think about it? Isnt it all a game that has been played on us by our own? free will...Ha!

it's like showing the dog a bone, alluring it, tempting it but then not giving it to the dog...then why are you bothered when the dog hollers and barks? its not fair..
It's like an innocent child who's being shown a different world on the idiotbox and when the child steps into real life its contradictory...we're breeding hypocrisy this way, within the confines of our own lifestyle. Contrast might be good. but this..this is just NOT it...

2nd year for 'her gorgeousness' :)

Today you've started a new chapter...*sigh* it means alot to me :)
There's just something about you being in 2nd year now, my senior grade hottie ;)
I know you must be thinking "You and your wierd turnons" haha :p
but ive always wanted this, like...2nd year was always a longawaited-milestone. Not that its a piece of cake, its just that..the significance that lies within the grade...12, senior at college :P and then to have a hot gf in the mix? its the touch that i cant quite describe *grins* ;) I mean who was I? I didnt fathom this to be reality when the time came...but well, i just sit and smile now..thinking :P its just awesome ;)
i may be sounding boyish..but when things happen the way you've always wanted them, even in the back of your mind, not being the highlight on the course till that point in time, they just.. feel good, ya know .. and i feel good ;) *wink wink* <3 I tried explaining to you lastnight...maybe it makes sense, maybe it doesnt.. either way, the point is...you're now a second year hottie :p and you've excelled all through, made me and others proud in more than one way and you still continue to...I love you more and more with time, its the best feeling, you're the best thing that has ever happened to the scarecrow...you're the only one, you're all i have, you're what i cant imagine being without, you're what keeps getting better <3 Today a new life begins...you'll walk in those hallways like a senior year sweetheart ;) haha these words are coming out haphazardly, i know. Its just... a moment, a feeling that i'd like to store and record in words. and so i did... Even if they lack concrete and distinct meaning, they will always hold the meaning within...and make me smile and remember what i felt :) be it a trifling notion. Its like you've grown, evolved, gone up a level... just like that, babydoll :)
Uno cuatro tres <3

"Banda Budha ho, Dil jawan hona chahiye"

So I was thinking... :P
We dont usually see romance alive in the grownups these days...
the exultant, cheesy and young romance. It tends to die out for most people but it basically is a matter of 'want'...
What about my want?
Well.. :P
I can so see us many many years from now sitting together in some lakeside bench or a movie theater or a car on a long rainy drive and be all cheesy and romantic...
I'd be tryin to sing songs with what teeth i have left in my mouth and still be reaching for your hand with my own shaky one... :P and be driving or just sitting with an arm around you, fondling with your hair with still the same passion that i once did when i was a boy and you were a pretty & shy cutie :)
I would say things that would make you scoff and "Uhh.." and shift in your seat with that endearing blush on your old wrinkled face...and with that blush i would feel like a young man all over again, full of love and passion :P God hahah!
I wouldnt care if people looked and their jaws dropped...or even if they would talk shit about 'that cheesy buddha'
seriously :P
That'd be fuckin awesome!
And our children and grandchildren would have good laughs about their grandparents' harkaat and go haww hayee :P well you know what, I'd be happy to know that atleast i'm not like all the other old hags who only sit around as far away from their spouses as possible so as to escape watching their face :p haha! There is no cure for old age, but there is a cure for an old heart ;)

and I would still brush your old and thin hair back and tuck it behind your ear and tell you you're still the prettiest lady in the world for me and give you the warmest smile my old, edgy, wrinkled and weak face would be able to give... <3 and entwine fingers... <3 I would still put all that i have in here <3 into it and take your hand like a romeo and kiss your knuckle and hold you close...making old bones feel special and young again... :)
It would even be good for our health and spirit hahahaha! :p
I would still stand in line among couples and hold hands with you to impress the fuck out of even the younger couples :P and you'd be the envy of all the girls with cold bfs...*yeah bitches* :P hahaha!
and I would be alive...in my heart...the scarecrow
:)
As long as you love him, the scarecrow is going nowhere...he wants to be your lover till the end...
Uno Cuatro tres <3

:P

Sam: And Oh Gosh those Pictures!...*sizzles*
Eden: *holds breath* Uhh..*confused how to react*
Sam: God, you sexy babe...
Eden: Uhhm..*sighs, blushing*...*biting lip, struggling to find the words*
Sam: *chuckling, grinning, aware of what's going on* what..? :P
Eden: Uff...tum na..kitne..wo ho..*pause*..Allah kre mera balance khatam ho jae abhi!
Sam: Whaatt??! *cracks up* :D

Oh baby :)
<3

Trilingual ;)

Missing you is the best avocation to pursue,
Thinking of you, surely, is the best thinking I ever do.
To name roses, your lips...to say ecstasy, your view
To have you again, wishes the mind, heart. the soul too.
In the steps, may you excel, they lie ahead of you,
Shine bright in my night skies like the brightest hue.
May our love keep us warm and our sorrows, undo
May it hold us tight in hardships, old or new
I know I'm quite a jerk at times, I'm fixing me to fit you,
But I love you for all your love and all the things that you do.
I'm feeling love grow, the little sapling we set to sow,
Has seen us through, rising, whether it rained or winds blew.
Let me love you more and more, let the bond never be broken,
Let me carry you home one day with your elegance and bloom
Itna pyar hai tmse, kam hai jitna bhi kahun
Eden...Mi Amore, para siempre, eres tu <3