*Rubs Lamp* Please Give me a Teleportation Device... Please?

"Hey there Delilah, What's it like in New York City
I'm a 1000 miles away but, girl, tonight you look so pretty
yes, you do...times square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true.."

Similar, are the words in my head tonight...
May you have great times, times that you'll always remember.
If you only knew...
how badly I wish to see you, to be with you...tonight...
in that attire...
that radiance...that gravity...
with that engaging allure that you possess...*sigh*
Ah, how delectable a sight that would be...for these longing eyes...

But, Alas...in life, things that are so majestic don't come that easy ;)

Uno Cuatro Tres <3

THIS is what we talk about on 14th Feb :P

On 14th feb,
during a chat on the phone about "if I ever break up with you..." :D
She tells me I gotta STAY friends always.
I point out that something like that would be realy REEALLY hard to do after a breakup... for both of us...

*conversation goes on*

Eden: Mujhe kya pata tha ke if I ever wana breakup with you to phir i would have to lose you as a friend too *feigns sob* :(
Sam: But..Isn't it like..understandable? i mean, DUH. If you ever wanna *emphasizes the syllables to make it clear* BREAK--UP then yeah...
Eden: But, but I don't wanna lose a friend... (>_<) nahi na :\
Sam: Why, then, would you wanna lose a loved one first..?
Eden: :o *taken aback* Oh...nahi. I dont wanna ever lose my loved one...nahi :(
Sam: Han na! to bhai who says I want to?? I dont wanna lose you eitherrr!!... :D Tumhein pata nahin aj kyun achanak shauq charha hai discuss karne ka *evil grin* :P
Eden: nahi nahi ye discussion to backfire hogai, koi nahi breakup! bus :(
Sam: Awwww! Hahahah Oh God, you are so Cuuuute!! :]
Eden: *embarrased* :$ *blushy-blushy* ...kya cute?? han?! kya?? kya cute is mein han??! *trying to sound all macho to cover up*
Sam: You know..just how you said it all and then... :P *snickers*
who's breaking up?! hm?? :) Nobodyyy! hhahah :D I love you... :}
Eden: *sighs* I love you too... :)
.....*long pause*......... but YOU ARE SUCH AN ASSHOLE%@^$&!!
Sam: WHhaaATT?!! :S *baffled*
*both break out into silly laughter*

Uno Cuatro Tres <3

Winter Nights...

Winter nights...can really make the imagination run wild and free...
To draw up sketches of what and where and with whom you wanna be...
One day... <3
it all at once seems...so close..yet so distant :)
Its best to just let the thoughts take root and the vision sink in...as the cold darkness around your warm cozy bed reverberates of the discreet, yet..ravishing presence...of someone so near and intimate you can almost feel them...
Happy winters, lovie :)
This goes out to you...



Uno Cuatro Tres <3

"You make me feel Something in my Everything"

Winters are here, like here-here...Bringing new stories and happenings

There's something about the crisp winter air that makes you just...scooch in a lil' more :p

The moon last night, from my front yard...
reminds me of the brilliance of your visage...the radiance of your countenace...
how I long to see it, like some would long for the moonlight... :)


"...you're the brightest light in the sky, for the scarecrow at night"


Its fun to sit infront of the heater...mostly cuz, well its WARM :p
and its one of those places where I think alot...idk, could be a winter thing...or just my lameness :P
But yeah, lastnight as I just sat there...reminiscining...I thought of many things...


...I look pretty homeless, yeah? :P
The heater..Yayy! Check out my ipod pulling off a lil artwork there. Shitty heart, yeah I know.













So a movie played in my head, a movie that has no end...
I recount all those times in the past 3 years, how we got to know each other...
and then later how it all came together for us... :)
quite a story, it is :p

...Yeah. 'Nuff sed XD lmao!

*...Pal Jhapakte, Kho Na Jana...Chu ke Karlun Yakeen...Na Jane Pal Ye Paen Kahan...Jaadu Hai Nasha Hai*

"and im just...being weird" :P

Im keeping this safe... :) best item discovered in my pocket ever. *wink wink* ;)

"And so the Lion Fell..."
I think you know what this is, peaches... ;)

Uno Cuatro Tres <3

Tch Tch Tch...poor me or poor fish?

*after being teased sufficiently with the bhai jan, bhai jan routine, Sam tries to play his cheesiness card* :P
*Eden, noticing its actually turning the tables, retaliates...*

Eden: Acha bus! Ab phir apna wo tharkipana na shuru kr dena!!...GANDE INSAN!!
Sam: ......... *silence*.........*feigns hurt* heartbreak... *sniff sniff* :\
Eden: Awww..acha nahi BHAI JAN aap roen to mat na...
Sam: ....*more silence*...... FURTHER heartbreak :\
Eden: mein BEHN JI hun na apki, itne paak rishte ko kharab na kijiye... *grins* :P
Sam: .......Heart broken and BURNT
Eden: Awwwwwwww acha chalein aap ja ke naha lein na BHAI JAN
Sam: ........heart broken and burnt to ASHES...
Eden: Ab zyada drameybazi na karein na BHAI JAN, warna mama ko shikayat laga dun gi..han
Sam: ........Heart broken, burnt and the ashes thrown in the RIVER... :(
Eden: Haha! awwwwwwwwww :p wow..ab ye na kehna ke the ashes are floating in the river or what not...LAME kaheen ke....
Sam: .....*pause*......the ashes are eaten by a fish!
Eden: WHAAAtt?! HAHAHAH!! *cracks up*
Sam: han na...see how bad it is? :\
Eden: * Oh God :D seriously, a fish?! wth??! HAHAH.....oh what, so now the fish has diarrhoea?
Sam: ........*pause* yeah...the fish has diarrhoea...and now its diarrhoea-ing all over the place... :(
Eden: WTF?! HAHAHA Eerrghhhh :P
Sam: Yeah see what you've done? now the whole sea is polluted...thanks to you...Gawd. :\

I was totally Mindfucked a while back, THIS was my last effort to counter it...but no, you're getting REALLY good at picking on lil things that I sometimes say by accident or deliberately getting the 'negative' out of what I say to you....yeah.. :p seems like now you've picked up the tricks from me and are now a pro at playing em on your own "boring-lecturer-of-a-bf"
;)

Uno Cuatro Tres <3

Bullshit

You know...i think its about time...
I've really been watching and letting go...
You were cool and all...or that's what i thought...i even cared about how you were doing and stuff...a couple of times the thoughts of being friends with you crossed my mind, since I thought you had dealt with this really nicely...I had know everything all along.
but then I got to know the truth...
You dont even like the mention of my 'name'...and yet you "befriend" this young woman as if she's nothing but an open place for your not-so-teenage and oh-so-much-more pure and real "love" that is beyond the comprehension of a mere 'kid' like me...
yeah. condescending as it is...more importantly it was confusing for her to the extent of depression "you know nothing about love"..."you have so much more to learn"
"my love for you is beyond the love you and everyone else thinks of" "my love is different than his...he cant love you the way i do" WHAT does it even mean?

do you know what it feels like...? Do you, asshole?

There's so much I have kept inside for so long...I mean there were moments when the timing couldn't have been more perfect, the timing to speak out, what I had in mind couldn't have been said at a better time...but i never did. Just kept giving you another chance....and another...and another...thinking, well perhaps he's still tryin to shake it off but maybe its hard for him...and that he'll eventually be alright. I know that's where he wants to be...
I always told myself, No...he's cool...he oughta understand...i thought you were better than me....and i dont have to kill any ego or anything like that to admit that i did

But what have you done??

Again, I ask you...Do you know what it feels like...?

You say to her "how can you let yourself be possessed by somebody at such a young age...i dont like how he can do that to you"
So you mean she should be an "open-house" for people like you? Whatever happened to her feelings and her desires in something special and exclusive?
dude, do you know the irony of this? what I have been silently ignoring for so long...? YOU are still, to this day, possessive about her...
admit it
You just dont get it...you dont...
and who ARE you?
You know, YOU getting uncomfortable when she mentions ME, still...ignoring any conversations about me...they clearly show what you feel man. Why cant you just face it?
Was she not clear enough the first time???? :\ I mean does it matter if I tell you your advances aren't a matter of thought or epiphany...but a matter of disappointment? :|
For me they're what they would be to any other bf. But for her its agonizing...
she was NOT kiddin around with you when she said what she wanted...
And She still isnt. But you're just... *sigh*

and when you say "I dont like how he can make you break down and be sad, frustrated so..." Ok, wise guy, do you have any God Damn idea WHAT happens when YOU say a word or two in anger to her? Your simplest egotistically understandable remarks even... can wreck her...do you have any idea how she cries, literally cries with tears down her cheek just cuz this "friend" is angry? You're not even her bf and still you're dear enough to her, you're worth tears to her, but you STILL don't respect that and honour that.... :( its a shame. Do you know what I have to go through to try to console her for YOU...? and You're not even her man. :\ Im not even supposed to be caring you know, but I do....or alteast I DID, until i was told that you dont respect or even give a fuck--no, rather, you dont even ACCEPT my 'existence' at all. Im just an "obstacle"...something that came in between....
Unbelievably pathetic. :\
You know honestly, Im surprised at how fuckedup in denial a person can be to think shit like that...
Its not depth, guy. its worrisome shit.

You have the nerve to talk to her about Marriage?! I mean who the fuck do you think you are....?? Really...just look at yourself... you're violating her trust in you as a 'friend', not respecting the matter-of-fact realities... cheating her friendship for something YOU want and she DOESN'T :|
if that's not the kind of intention her and I have been noticing, then WHAT are you saying....? WHAT is the matter with you? Do you know what it feels like when your gf tells you that THAT's what someone said....? Do you???
If I STILL had respect for you all this time, I think the last remaining blades of it burned away after you said this to her....and i know that was, as well, some time ago....

I dont think you accept reality....you dont accept ME...you dont think 'I' exist....
Denial. Denial and nothing but.
You never truly accepted when she told you "NO"
You never truly accepted when she said she found ME
You never truly accepted ME being there....where YOU wanted to be
and by 'accepted' i mean truly, not just a superficial yeah-yeah

Man, cmon...
I thought you were more sensible...
Why do you have to put this on her plate? Do you think she needs to deal with this? No, she does NOT... :S
It is a matter of great resent for her when she sees someone who can be such a good "friend" of hers, someone she trusts she can keep at such a close distance all of a sudden turns into...something else...
that just makes things rotten.
And then you gotta go around shoving your "oh its not THAT love you think of" crap in her face when clearly your intentions are evident....i dont even know what to say to you man...just... atleast look at how old you are and wtf you're doing... :\
When there's a girl and guy...who are to be friends, and nothing more...then one should just....accept that...
Otherwise its pathetic.
You make her regret keeping you soooo close...If you really DONT want that then get your shit straight.
WAKE the FUCK up already...
It totally seems like you're not gonna even THINK about it, you're just NOT gonna GET IT until you have your ass handed to you gracefully by someone. She doesnt try to do that cuz she has a place for you in her heart. But you keep mistaking it for some OTHER place in her heart. Do you know how stupid this seems, for a person your age and your social standing? Not AS stupid as me having to say all of this stuff just cuz someone is too thickheaded to understand... :\

I thought you were better than this, I thought you were not like the others...

Before her and I, when you two were real close I wasnt like YOU, you asshole :\ i respected boundaries...and would you believe me if i say I, personally, used to encourage her...to go for it, have at it. But No, that just wasn't meant to happen. And it didn't. Despite all that, she didn't think that was it for her. You should've understood there and then cuz I know she was clear enough. She has always been clear enough. They say when a man and woman are together, attraction is inevitable. Well, It was her choice...and she made it...a long time ago. But you are still denying it to yourself...what happened to self-respect? ghairat? :\

And I dont know why you have it in your head that I have an impending exit waiting to happen, after which you can force your way in like you try to, even now...every once in a while there is an episode.
Pathetic.

Believe me...
If I were to meet you, I would have an answer to ALL your notions and arguments, answers that when she tries to give you in her words time and again, just don't really make you stop....and think about what you're doing. You don't understand her language. Maybe(just maybe) you'd understand mine.
Like that song goes...
"Friends, lovers or nothing. There can only ever be one.
FRIENDS, LOVERS or NOTHING. There can never be an in-between, so give it up."

1:45am, Tuesday night...Apologies to Sir Syed and Iqbal :P

*cuddled up in blankets*...
Eden: You know I dont think people made love in the old days, like 1840s...
Sam: Really? What makes you say that baby?
Eden: I just think so...
Sam: Hmmmm, I think they could...I mean its human nature
Eden: Nahi..you can't imagine sir syed ahmed khan really 'making love' to his wife, can you??
Sam: O_o *baffled* Kyaa?!!
Eden: ..or Mariah Carey?
Sam: WHaatT??! *breaks into laughter* Komal? WTH??
Eden: Han na, that's just so...I, I just dont think the girl would be able to...you know...
Sam: *still laughing*
Eden: wo daarhi itna.....chubti hogi...ERGH!
Sam: *completely cracks up*
Eden: Shutuuup! :P *cracks up too*
*after sharing profuse laughter finally calms down*
Sam: WOW
Eden: Yeah so you see, they probably didnt make love...
Sam: Yeah I guess they didnt then... not with that beard anyways *aftershock laugh* :P
Eden: *snickers* yeah, God, Ergh...
Sam: That's why I'm never keeping a mustache or a beard...
Eden: Haan..
Sam: taake chubne ki kisi ko fikr na karni pare na... :P
Eden: Ji han! *laughs away* awesome ;)
Sam: But mariah carey...?? sir syed...?!! WTF?!
Eden: What...? im just sayin :P
Sam: Seriously?? :D
Eden: Yeah Iqbal was really fat too...
Sam: Huh??! HAHAHAHAH!!
Eden: Im seriouusss... *giggles* wo ITNE mote the pata hai? :P
Sam: Omg! And did you know that he had many wives in his life...?? Not simultaneous though
Eden: Really?? Wow....*pause*...maybe Mariah Carey would be calling Iqbal while she is underneath sir syed... :P
Sam: *barely constrained chuckle* making an appointment for tuesday..? *laughs his head off*
Eden: *cracks up again*

Oh God, the stuff we talk about sometimes... HAHA!! :D
Love you, Babydoll :)

Uno Cuatro Tres <3

Jump then Fall

There are times when you say I'm just typical: my affections are pretentious. Not meant, not met up to, that they let you down, claims unmet, promises unkept...patience lost...
Its nobody's 'fault'.
It's just me being...well, pretty damn ordinary. Which defines my persona through the paradigm of an unbiased unattached perspective. (yes, you're biased too :p)
That's what love does. It happens to everyone. And yes, everyone lives and loves like everyone else and the Earth keeps on spinning. But naturally, as a bf, I feel as though I'm entitled to a couple or so responsibilities. And I take them up, the best I can, and try...atleast try...to be the best I can be. Even if it means failing miserably cuz of predestined or inexorable circumstances.
Just because you fall, are let down, turned off...
doesn't mean you won't be brought back up, turned on...
you think I won't catch you if you fall? cuz of my antics and fuckups?
I mean, I admit that I can't be the dream date, I admit that I say things that are sometimes not met up to. I'm fallible. Very. But that doesn't mean that I wont pretend, that I wont dream, that I wont try...
There ARE times in life when you just don't wanna miss a good chance to shut up.(this is not one of those times) And there are also times when you just don't wanna be caught off-guard by any reason. By any notion put forth by you or any other. But there are times, too, when you just don't wanna think like a realist, strictly practical and measured; but dream like a child. Say without repress, claim without reason, and imagine without restraint. (I mean really, where's the fun without it? just Think :) Life is a bitch enough.) And baby When you shine in my eyes, it's one of these moments...
and at such instances if i lead you to believe what I want you to believe, please do, I'm not saying don't believe me...but...always remember that it was only you whom I ever said anything like that to, whom I ever made such a promise to, and with whom I ever claimed such a thing. And later if those very things fall apart over something else I said...the latter being in a moment of anger/resent/frustration maybe...then please don't forget the former.
Don't be afraid to be let down. I'm terribly human. Prone to mishap. As well as heartbreak. But so are you. In order for two simpletons like us to have each other, forever, we must first indeed recognize the fallibility of ourselves, no?
Revenge, my dear, isn't sweet to me. The conscious breathes but does it really need to choke the other for a moment to really feel better again?
I love you more than songs can ever say.(and they say alot) I care for that heart and those tears more than my own. But only when I do something bad is when I realize I shouldn't have. In the end, one cannot possibly live with too many restraints on thought and expression. You're a staunch believer in that. So am I. But as biased as I am, I may sometimes disregard this for myself. And yes, it just happens. I don't wanna hurt you. And It still happens. I dont wanna be angry but at times it still happens. Obviously, Im not perfect even if i try.
Realizing this, I dont stop trying altogether...
Cuz if I do that, who's gonna be all mushy at the age of grandpa and grandma, hm? Who's gonna lie in the same bed and chat on msn? Who's gonna have same & eden in an aquarium? Who's gonna talk you to sleep? Who's gonna call me stupid and tharki and loser? Who's gonna cook a killer lasagna on my birthday? Who's gonna teach me how to salsa? Who's gonna tell me im boring? Who's gonna visit me in my dreams?
Without you, I dont wanna be. Without you is just outside my brain matter, and i want it to stay there. I want us to last. When times are good, when times are bad. Whatever the magnitude, the foundation of it all is hope of the future. If a such a thing as hope, something abstract, can keep us two together, well I would imagine WE are only as imperfect as it gets. and yes we damn well remember it at all times, or else... :p
I love you. I need you.
And when one of us shows some of the ever-prevalent human tendencies of 'fuckin-up', well... then don't be afraid. <3
To Believe again.
To Say again.
To Smile again.
To Love again. :)



Uno Cuatro Tres <3

Imagine Me Imagining You Imagining Us ;)

I envy you for that...
Yes, that dream made me drift away...
It felt so mesmerizing just to imagine...(yep, imaginations rock)
and it made me happy... :)
You said "So if you love someone that means you wonder about them??"
gee, Well..DUH!
:P
and that's my unalienable right, your dreaminess...
yes, the right to use my head...my imagination :D
so yeah...please dont refrain yourself, its your right too...
besides, YOU were the one who dreamt such an awesome dream, not me... :P
So go ahead ;) utilize the rest 42% of it that was kept safe from your "tharki"... :P
HAHA! God *shakes head* :D
Oh and yes, despite it all...I would still wish that the 65% of it comes true like you told me :P warna aur bhi dreams hain jo.. apko pata hi hain ;) but they're a bit too bizarre or a bit too much for.. just yet...if you know what I mean... :P
Uno Cuatro Tres <3

Tata!

Its endearing when you say bye a dozen times and end up talking, not getting off the phone :P
Its cuter when you do it like you're a pissed, a zalimana BYE and then silence...and then after a few seconds again voices return... :p
suddenly I, being the so-termed "brutally" romantic and persistent bf, break the silence again and go:
"Well...?"
"Whaatt?? Tum gae kyun nahi??" *blushing, surprised by the cute awkwardness of it*
"Cuz you didnt cut the call.." *grins*
"What?? Me? Ergh! Jana to tum ne hai"
"Nahi to, mujhe to koi jaldi nahi hai"
"Acha to jao na...jao BYE!"
"acha acha jata hun jata hun..." *giggles*
"Jao..BYEE!!"
"Aisa bye?"
"Han...Ap jaen..abhi!!" *80% teased*
"Abhi?"
"YES Abhi!"
"Isi waqt?"
"ERGH! Han na! Jao bhi...Loser!!"
*cracks up*
"Erghh!! Nahi na bhai.. ye kya baat hui...Ye kya bkwas hai?"
"bkwas ye hai ke..I love you"
"Yeah right..I hate you too"
"mmhmmm" *chuckling*
"ab jao bus...tata! BYE! Jao!"
"acha na ja raha hun na, ja raha hun.."
"Jao..tata!"
"tata.."
......*silence for 5 seconds*
*AAA!! Jaooo!*
"OK OK! GOD!!" *cracks up again*
"I hate you!!"
"I love you too!"
"Mein nahi baat kr rahi...kuti! Jao..Go effin shower!!"
"Jaun?"
"HAN! JAEN!!"
"so you want me to go, right?"
"Han stoopid!"
"Then you're supposed to push the red button, love haha mein ne to nahi jana"
"GO.SHOWER.RIGHT.NOW...BYE!"
...... *more silence*
"Well..? you didnt push the red button!"
"OMG! AAA!! Tum jao na, mein kyun karun?"
"Cuz apko hi jaldi mujhe bhejne ki"
"Ergh! Bus enough! BYE! TATA!"
"this tata for real?" *chuckling still*
"YES BYE TATA!"
*finally cuts the call as soon as the word TATA leaves her vocal cords making sure it doesnt happen yet again*

WOW! That was unbelievably cute, baby :P
HAHA!
Uno Cuatro Tres <3

'It Fits!'

As it got closer and closer my heart started to really shift into high gear, I'd been there, holding the thing inside the curl of my fingers and the ambiance was sufficiently dark. The movie played on and as it got deeper into the story, I felt uneasy of the fact that I'd have to do it soon...and do it right! And then in an impulsive moment of confidence I took a deep breath, trying to conquer the impending nervousness that had kept building in me since I had pulled it out of my pocket and into my hand without you noticing, turned to face you...

Yes, you...I swear I can still see it, that look in your eyes, as you so innocently and so gorgeously looked on into the brightness, your eyes...they were like an abyss of beauty, I felt breathless in that vision, enchanted by those eyes that weren't even locked into mine at the moment...they shined and glistened in the dark, like little bright stars in the night sky, the fullness of your glowing visage, the shape of your eyes, the lining of your brows, the alluring kohl to top it off, the intermittently batting and mesmerizing eyelashes, that pretty face nestled in the black undulant hair...that splendor, that shine... :)

I can say that it was this heavenly sight that somehow gave me that last spark, as I went on.. to slowly and discreetly slide it up your finger...and smile triumphantly at what I saw <3
*the moment of truth*..."it fits!" ..I whispered, grinning.
Ecstasy took over me instantly...I had followed my observation to get the right size and was told that it would be seen if the instinctive guess I had made would turn out to be credible or not, making it all the more significant :p
Oh how long I had waited for this moment *sigh* :)
And I cant really say what you must have felt in that one electrifying moment, I saw a hottie, shocked and overjoyed at the same time, no words, just the way that face lit up and that jaw dropped...when you hadn't seen it coming and then suddenly... its on your finger, the stones glistening in the sight of your pretty-pretty fingers entwined with my dark ones...as you looked up at me and the act was sealed with the endearing and lovely exchange of those three lil words ;) from both Sam & Eden...
Priceless... :)
Uno cuatro tres <3

2nd year for 'her gorgeousness' :)

Today you've started a new chapter...*sigh* it means alot to me :)
There's just something about you being in 2nd year now, my senior grade hottie ;)
I know you must be thinking "You and your wierd turnons" haha :p
but ive always wanted this, like...2nd year was always a longawaited-milestone. Not that its a piece of cake, its just that..the significance that lies within the grade...12, senior at college :P and then to have a hot gf in the mix? its the touch that i cant quite describe *grins* ;) I mean who was I? I didnt fathom this to be reality when the time came...but well, i just sit and smile now..thinking :P its just awesome ;)
i may be sounding boyish..but when things happen the way you've always wanted them, even in the back of your mind, not being the highlight on the course till that point in time, they just.. feel good, ya know .. and i feel good ;) *wink wink* <3 I tried explaining to you lastnight...maybe it makes sense, maybe it doesnt.. either way, the point is...you're now a second year hottie :p and you've excelled all through, made me and others proud in more than one way and you still continue to...I love you more and more with time, its the best feeling, you're the best thing that has ever happened to the scarecrow...you're the only one, you're all i have, you're what i cant imagine being without, you're what keeps getting better <3 Today a new life begins...you'll walk in those hallways like a senior year sweetheart ;) haha these words are coming out haphazardly, i know. Its just... a moment, a feeling that i'd like to store and record in words. and so i did... Even if they lack concrete and distinct meaning, they will always hold the meaning within...and make me smile and remember what i felt :) be it a trifling notion. Its like you've grown, evolved, gone up a level... just like that, babydoll :)
Uno cuatro tres <3

"Banda Budha ho, Dil jawan hona chahiye"

So I was thinking... :P
We dont usually see romance alive in the grownups these days...
the exultant, cheesy and young romance. It tends to die out for most people but it basically is a matter of 'want'...
What about my want?
Well.. :P
I can so see us many many years from now sitting together in some lakeside bench or a movie theater or a car on a long rainy drive and be all cheesy and romantic...
I'd be tryin to sing songs with what teeth i have left in my mouth and still be reaching for your hand with my own shaky one... :P and be driving or just sitting with an arm around you, fondling with your hair with still the same passion that i once did when i was a boy and you were a pretty & shy cutie :)
I would say things that would make you scoff and "Uhh.." and shift in your seat with that endearing blush on your old wrinkled face...and with that blush i would feel like a young man all over again, full of love and passion :P God hahah!
I wouldnt care if people looked and their jaws dropped...or even if they would talk shit about 'that cheesy buddha'
seriously :P
That'd be fuckin awesome!
And our children and grandchildren would have good laughs about their grandparents' harkaat and go haww hayee :P well you know what, I'd be happy to know that atleast i'm not like all the other old hags who only sit around as far away from their spouses as possible so as to escape watching their face :p haha! There is no cure for old age, but there is a cure for an old heart ;)

and I would still brush your old and thin hair back and tuck it behind your ear and tell you you're still the prettiest lady in the world for me and give you the warmest smile my old, edgy, wrinkled and weak face would be able to give... <3 and entwine fingers... <3 I would still put all that i have in here <3 into it and take your hand like a romeo and kiss your knuckle and hold you close...making old bones feel special and young again... :)
It would even be good for our health and spirit hahahaha! :p
I would still stand in line among couples and hold hands with you to impress the fuck out of even the younger couples :P and you'd be the envy of all the girls with cold bfs...*yeah bitches* :P hahaha!
and I would be alive...in my heart...the scarecrow
:)
As long as you love him, the scarecrow is going nowhere...he wants to be your lover till the end...
Uno Cuatro tres <3

:P

Sam: And Oh Gosh those Pictures!...*sizzles*
Eden: *holds breath* Uhh..*confused how to react*
Sam: God, you sexy babe...
Eden: Uhhm..*sighs, blushing*...*biting lip, struggling to find the words*
Sam: *chuckling, grinning, aware of what's going on* what..? :P
Eden: Uff...tum na..kitne..wo ho..*pause*..Allah kre mera balance khatam ho jae abhi!
Sam: Whaatt??! *cracks up* :D

Oh baby :)
<3

iFail

And so it goes...
the idiot realizes he went against the very thing he stood for and remorse drips from him owing to a turnaround in his state of mind. I might as well be left to wither and fade and still it'd be justified. What came to me was...wierd. stupid. And then later on..when some thoughts come up that lead you home, where you shud've been earlier, the feeling of disgruntle-cum-poststupidity is immensely miserable. :(
I'm sorry...my brain lost composure, it was too big of a thing to think about all at once and I didnt let the whole idea sink in maturely. and i dont know why i was like that. Perhaps it had never occured to me that you were testing the strength of my feelings for once, nevertheless, I was partly blind to the reality around me and failed to live up to my own beliefs in love. All it needed was a push. A mere usher. You're the type of person that is hard to find in these times. From the inside out, you're the most caring, soft, considerate and "good" person I have ever known. And what people say? idgaf. Fuck 'em. You're way WAYY more important, period. seriously, wtf was i thinking before...*sigh* You're just so ...nice...
You're better than many in many ways. better than they'll ever be no matter what they believe or dont beleive in. That, in itself, is the key to a happy life ahead. Its hard to find. And there and then, it dawned on me as i sat alone in the crowded engagement ceremony feeling numb. I saw imperfection, hypocrisy everywhere...and then from therein you rose to something more than that, something closer to perfection in terms of being true and pure. The "good" in you will always tend to come out on top because its just that prevalent. complete with strawberries and whipped cream. Not only like it has with me but with the poeple who'll be around us...the one's that matter, all of em :) i can so see it happening...
And my feelings for you, the foundation of 'us' existing.. was not based on this aspect in the first place...so i... yeah, wtf was i sayin....*sigh* fail :\
After some serious considerations, I had a big realization and made a big decision. I Thank you for giving me the time... to think...to use my fuckin head... and not just letting go of me when I had bluntly let you down and hurt your feelings and expectations so stupidly and all too suddenly....

Its not just because I love you for what you are from the inside out...but because i WANT it. i WANT you and i WANT to love you for that pretty and tempting, endearing, lovely and ever-evolving image of yours in here <3
Besides you're not gona turn any less hotter ;) haha sorry just had to ;p

"I've got an angel...she doesnt wear any wings"



Uno Cuatro Tres
<3

The Moment...

The look of your closed eyes
your eyelashes embellishing the lining of those precious diamonds
kajal adorning grace that melts this heart of mine
and when my eyes catch the glimpse, eyebrows surrounding...
its as though time stops for a bit, i crave to have you lean on me like that for ever in this moment
and the warmth of your body against mine, is better than any snuggly coat in the snow or any warm quilt on a chilly winter night...
its softer than any pillow or any fur known to man, smoother than the texture of honey or whipped cream ;)
the desire is deep, you make my head spin round...you give me surplus heartbeats whenever you blush...or when you say those three lil words in your own ways...and all this doesnt run out... for you see, that thing you do with your lips...yes, that smile :) its the perpetual source
brings it back, brings more, so let it take over...
there's this 'complete' feeling that lies in your presence...incomplete without you, is the scarecrow...
lets be complete...
Uno Cuatro Tres <3

Hawaii, Paris, Bikinis

I: If I can ever take you on a vacation somewhere abroad, we'll go to Paris...
Eden: No, we'll go to Hawaii baby
I: Hawaii? But I thought -
Eden: Because you like Hawaii na..and I wanna go there too
I: But there's the Eiffel tower you know, the sexiest building according to you
Eden: Well, I -
I: And we can kiss underneath it, like that movie...
Eden: *chuckles*
I: what do you think?
Eden: well, Hawaii..because i wanna go there...and you know i love beaches, right?
I: yeah..
Eden: So there...
I: Ok, Hawaii it is
Eden: Theek hai
I: But If we're going to Hawaii you're gonna have to wear a bikini...
Eden: What..?!
I: *grins*
Eden: Ok..we're going to Paris!
I: *cracks up*
Eden: Jee han..*blushing*

HAHA :p

When I saw you...

"Falling short, describing the moment...
the moment you walked up the steps...
From where you'll always be eminent...
in between dreams and deep breaths...
From where the movie starts in my head...
beauty, lavishly elegant, approaching in a black dress..."

You're more than words can express...despite my ever-lasting and seemingly persistent mushiness, to this day, honestly, i have never felt even once...close to completely and entirely encompassing your "pretty"... :) delicate, luxuriant, lovely...i fail to suffice in words for it...
i fail to do so, but then again, i do believe...that any man would... *kisses your knuckle*

When I met your glance, it dawned on me...it had been worth the wait...well worth everything i had done...

And from then on it was all...a dream...sometimes i think i still haven't woken up...
Maybe i don't want to...until i see you again.
Uno Cuatro Tres...